AHHH I have to go to work again tomorrow

I am not looking forward to this, mainly because I feel like the 'yes girl' and the 'oh no I am not busy at all' The truth is I am so busy I could cry... I have not only about 30 emails to respond to but also 150+ case to review. We are fancy and each case is time for 5 minutes each... let just say I NEVER get through this much work. I feel really bad about this and I snapped today. I went to our acting manager and new manager and said I can't continue too hand hold case and get an application on Monday late afternoon and have a client scheduled to complete an exam by Thursday or Friday in the morning when everyone is hoping to schedule because fasting is no fun especially when your awake...WHATEVER. So they talk with the big man and tell me what the one thing I don't want to hear... Talk to the one person who everyone loves (minus me and a bunch of other people). Anyway she is worthless and pretty much nothing is going to change because why create waves. However she doesn't give two shits about me so she wouldn't even say this to my face. Today was so horrible I almost walked out, I have had too much this week. It is really sad when you talk with someone on the phone and say you sound beat down and get an email about what the hell is going on with your work as it has spiked to the point of unbelievable. The sad part is I HAVE TO GO BACK... we are also doing an ice breaker tomorrow in our team meeting... I was suppose to send 2 truths and a lie... I joked with a couple people my lie would be I am a really nice caring person....HAHAHAHAHAHA. On the plus side I went to Target to de-stress because lets be honest the captain diets were not going to help this mood. The sad thing is Target didn't help but Abby enjoyed it so much she fell asleep. The thing I do know is I have my mid-year review on Friday and at this point I am not sure I am going to say because the only things that come to my mind might get me a box and escorted walk to the door :(

It's August

I can't believe it is already August... My baby is now 5 months and the personality on that one is hard to believe. She is leaving little bruises on my arms, is now pulling my hair and slaps. I know that she is learning how to feel different things and some of if is nervous energy she needs to release it but as I tell her 'that is ouchie too the mama' and she smiles because lets be honest it is kind of funny... but seriously if she starts biting I am done!

She has also started eating baby food... the puffs, rice cereal and for all those bad parents out there ice cream. I lived on it while pregnant so why not... I have problems with rules... especially when it comes to frozen treats. I will admit I have tried everything I feed my baby... I am a firm believer if you wouldn't eat it how could you feed your child it. Joe finds it strange and has tried nothing. I don't think he realize it is not that bad but not that great either. I think we have both decided that being a parent is not an easy task but rewarding in so many ways.

We have changed so much but in so many ways are the same... I know that our little angel just showed up one June night unplanned and unannounced but I will keep her and love her forever.

P.S. here is a cute picture of my beach babe <3 Heidi